*** I meant to post this like a week ago, but that didn't happen for some reason... Probably I wanted to post more pics for it, but yeah it's probs not gonna happen, so there is that. Ha! ***

So, I know I just talked about staying positive and all, but I do think there are some negative-ish things that are worth documenting. Mostly for memory's sake and to probably laugh at later in life. And laughing, is a very good thing;)

LOWS

cramps(that will probs be a monthly crappy note.. haha--dinner not being ready until 8:30//acne breakout--no heat curl experiments never working on my hair--My hair just being 'blah' in general. I feel a change coming on!--Chance got a speeding ticket on our way home from Delta, out in the middle of nowhere, and the cop's computer didn't even work. What a joke--horrible horrible HORRIBLE day at work. Everything going wrong, even when I was in the right. So frustrating.


HIGHS

heating pad for cramps ; lifesaver, also just super nice in general. It's like a hot tub, but you stay dry.--free costa vida at work--listening to T swift's RED cd, which I haven't done since it came out 2 years ago. It reminds me a lot of Chance because I was listening to it non-stop about the same time I started hanging out with him a ton. nostalgia!--successful healthy TASTY chicken salad recipe!--wedding album complete, and I'm in love!--last time in my happy notes I was happy for 45 degree weather in January, now I'm happy for 60 degree weather in February!--Chance making me laugh all the night long--returning extra album pages, then buying the cutest skirt with the returned money woohoo (because Chance said yes:)!--tasty homemade street tacos yeah!--our lonely Valentines decoration... it's cute. -- Reggie came. Reggie = my new bass guitar. I never thought I would even play a bass guitar, let alone own one. But I do. And I love him.

I'm really hesitant to post this and I don't know why! Which probably means I should. Anyways here goes...

I recently had an experience where I was scrolling through social media and I saw a post that I was quick to judge. It was more like jealousy, I guess, at another's life and what not. I even tried to justifying my jealousy by putting that person down [to clarify, I only put this person down, in my head, my own thoughts. I did not outwardly and publicly express those feelings to said person or anyone else for that matter.] I was super bothered that this upset me like that and I asked myself. Why do I feel the need to justify like that? To make myself feel better? Because it really doesn't make me feel that much better anyway which makes it a lose-lose situation. So I decided something. I decided that I was going to change my attitude and say to myself "I'm really happy for you [this person]", and then really feel it. Though it just started as words, I honestly felt a weight off my shoulders. As soon as assumed they had all the best intentions in the world and that they were genuine, it was easy to be happy for them!

I definitely fall victim to jealousy. Especially with all the social media craze. When people seem to be able to just vacation all the time, have the cutest clothes, all the latest accessories and all that jazz, I get jealous! Sue me! But then I have to remember to step back and think. Am I upset with my life? Because if I am then I should do something about it. If I'm not, which I am not, then why am I getting so bothered. Truth is, I love my life and all the things that it entails. I don't need to have the cutest clothes, the nicest things, the prettiest pictures, the coolest apartment, to be the happiest I can be. Sure I love cute clothes, and traveling, and taking pictures as much as the next person if not more, and I'd even go as far as to say those things DO make me happy, but I don't NEED it. And I don't need more of it or better of it (that doesn't make sense.. haha) than anyone else. My life isn't perfect, your life isn't perfect, no one's life is perfect and care-free. But it's those people who make the effort to be happy in all the imperfections, that seem like they have the perfect life, and that is something that I strive for. People call it fake when you only share the happy things in your life. It's not fake. Those things are very much real. The world has enough negativity, there's not need to contribute to it. I've said this before and I'll say it again. The more you focus on the positive, the harder it becomes to see the negative.

So here is to choosing happy. Happy for me and happy for others. It may be hard to perfect these goals, but I will try.  It makes a world of difference! Like, I am so happy right now:).